October 25, 2009

What I didn't say

My last post covered in excruciating detail the tarot card spread I did, and my thoughts on how the message really hit home with me.

What I didn't mention in that post, what I didn't say, is why.

I have been guided along this path for 7 months now (7? really?) by someone most of you are familiar with.

She has been my constant companion, and I do mean constant, even though we live in different states; she has been my mentor, and the closest friend I have ever or will ever have. I have confided in her secrets I have never told anyone else, and probably never will. I have bared my soul to her, trusted her, allowed her to "see" literally all of what is in my head.

But I have also frustrated her with excuses, periods of inactivity, and just plain being stubborn.

She has tried and tried to get me to see what was coming, told me to get up and DO something and I didn't listen. Oh I heard the words, but I didn't "listen". I kept saying, "yeah, I get it", when in fact, I didn't.

Then, when I saw the cards and their meanings on that website, it finally clicked. I don't know why, it just did.

I wanted to write this post to acknowledge her and to thank her profusely for putting up with my BS for all this time, and to tell her that without her, I would not have made it as far as I have.

I could say she doesn't know how much she means to me, but I know she does, she has a gift, and even though I know she HATES gush, I just want to say that I love her in ways I didn't know were possible 7 months ago, our friendship defies description.

Who is this amazing woman you ask? Why, it's none other than Bella Foxglove. Don't know who that is? Well head on over to her blog, Wanderings of a Wondering Mind, and see for yourself.


Jupiter Greenmoone said...

Good for you Rayden :)

Mother's Moon's Message said...

She is a dear person.... glad to hear you have such a friend

Bella Foxglove said...

Your gonna make me blush Ray lol..

Your right, I hate gush, but this really touched me and I really appreciate it.

We have been friends for almost 16 years now, and I am really glad that we get to walk this part of our journey together as friends.

Keep your chin up, you are becoming
more aware every day, and now that what I have been trying to tell you all this time has finally been made clear to you, use the clarity to make some life changes...keeping the BIG picture in mind, not just the small stuff...and you will be fine.

Thanks for this again, and thanks for being my friend.