October 19, 2009

Comment capers

I was reading a post at The Wandering Hearth that spoke of two people being rude and hateful to each other, in commenting on a blog.


This is not the first time I have heard of this happening. Whether it be body image issues, as the above post seemed to be referring to, or religious issues, or any other topic that strikes your fancy, it seems that on occasion there are hateful and hurtful comments that one person bestows upon another, either directly or in reference to a certain "type" of person or belief. And then of course there is the retaliatory strike by someone with the "opposite" opinion.


The thing that strikes me the most is what normally ensues in these situations can only be described as DRAMA. Some people seem to live and thrive off of creating it, others by escalating it. Interesting phenomenon to observe.


Is it because a person feels somehow "personally" attacked by someone's words? Is there a feeling of insecurity there? One can argue that there was simply a difference of opinion, but what is it that makes this happen?


What I am TRYING to say is this.


Can't we all just get along?


I'm not trying to say that I never argue, but this kind of behavior really bothers me.


When commenting on someone's post, I leave whatever comments are already there alone, even if they say something I do not agree with. I personally believe that comments are to be reserved for the purpose of leaving thoughts on the post itself, not to agree or disagree with comments left by others. I think that most people practice that policy, out of respect for the person that has posted.


I don't know what else to say, but I felt the need to say my piece about it.


I have a question for you, my blog friends. How do you feel about this?


Am I alone feeling this way? Do you agree? Do you NOT agree? Are comments a forum for discussion? Or are they individual thoughts to be kept separate?


Comment to me on this, and we'll see together what the answer is.








October 17, 2009

My goddess is found

The goddess is found.



At this minute, at this point in my journey, I am seeing her all around me. 


Little things have pointed me to her, showed me she is watching.


Her name even, finally revealed.


Freya. "The Lady", the mistress, the origin of the name of the day Friday?


Warrior goddess, goddess of sensual love.


I did some research and found this.




I cannot vouch for how much of it is historical fact, but the quote at the very bottom of the page is what really stood out to me.


"The goddess Freya reminds us to explore and acknowledge all of our emotions, longings, and traits, even those we wish we didn't possess".


This is the journey I have been on for months, exploring and acknowledging all that is part of me. 


I can now put a name to the "face" that has been in my thoughts, and now I understand why it was not revealed before now.


I have had two visions/dreams in which she appeared, but was behind me both times.


She was behind me because she was pushing me, guiding me with loving care. Not just in my visions, but in life, into situations that would take me to places I had never gone before, or more aptly, places I did not want to go.


Places in my mind, in my heart. Places where love flooded out to drown those around me, but left me feeling empty. Places where fear, and anger, and self loathing had festered and boiled, places where doubt, laziness, and false hopes sprang up like thistles and brambles to tear at the fragile skin of my ego.


I have an ego, for I am human. I am "exploring and acknowledging" my emotions, even the ones I wish I didn't have, and learning to let logic have its place, to achieve "balance" in the way I think and act.


Freya is my goddess, she is with me, teaching, leading, guiding.


I am grateful.   






I discovered this on photobucket, it is the best representation I've found of what I have seen of her in my visions. The main thing I remember was that the clouds/mist were of a bluish hue, and her hair was sort of a blond color, with the "flowy" part of it also having the bluish tint to it.





October 15, 2009

Update

My job search took a step in the right direction today. In a few weeks I may just be a substitute teacher.


I got an email from the Kelly services agency to fill out an online application, which I did, and shortly after filling it out and submitting it, I got a phone call to set up an interview. It's mostly just to do some paperwork, but it's progress nonetheless.


Now if I can only come up with the $48 I need to get fingerprinted per their instructions. Somehow I'm sure I'll get it done.


On another note, I have started studying the tarot, so that when I can afford to buy a deck I will at least be familiar with what to do with it, and I've also began researching astrology in more detail, something I have been drawn to for more years than I can count.


I've also been working on meditating more, and doing less thinking and more doing. My emotions have always ruled everything I have done, and I am really working now to achieve a balance of logic and emotion. I used to think that to be logical meant the absence of emotion, but to think clearly there should be emotion as well as logic, not too much of either.


As far as my goddess goes, her exact identity still eludes me, but somehow, I feel like she is working in my life now more than ever. For a man such as myself, I thought it would mean her getting me more in touch with my "feminine" side, but you know, I don't think that was ever a problem.


(I mean honestly, did any of you think I wasn't?)


What I needed was the ability to be "feminine" and "masculine" all at the same time, and that my friends, is what I am learning.


So for now I will just continue to learn and grow, and be thankful. Gratitude goes a long way in the universe, and I have a lot to be grateful for.