Thinking

Well here I am again, after not posting for a few days, thinking about what I need to do with myself.


I went this afternoon to the local career center to see if there were any job openings I could apply for, and I did apply to one job, working for the state.


I've been doing a lot of internalizing lately, as ya'll can see from my posts as of late, but now it's time to get up off of my duff and do something about it.


Do you ever get tired of emotional stuff? Always feeling, love this, hate that. Thinking too much about dumb stuff. Thinking too much period.


Well needing a job takes very little thought. So I'm going to go get one.


Simple as that. No thought, no feeling.


Today I felt like getting off the computer, facebook especially. So I did.


I fix stuff. Fix cars, fix computers, fix the plumbing, you name it, I fix it.


So I set out to fix my life.


Not as easy, but still, I can fix this.


All I need to do is to quit thinking, and start doing.


So, ok, talk to you later!

Ta Da!!!!! Happy Halloween!!! And, another award!!!

Here it is folks!! My blog in costume!!


What do you think? He's scary isn't he?


I'm a little overwhelmed at the moment, I simply don't know how to describe my joy and happiness.


Bella Foxglove, over at Wanderings of a Wondering Mind, has again provided me with a blog to be proud of, and I am most grateful.


Then, to my surprise, on top of doing that, she left a comment for me on my last post telling me she had something for me on her blog.


So, I went over to check it out, and here it is!!!

Now, ladies and gentlemen, this is indeed a great honor.


It's been hard sometimes writing my feelings down for complete strangers to peruse, well not "strangers", but you know, people I don't know personally.


I write in my blog as often as the spirit moves me, and I have put a lot of really personal stuff in my posts that I was afraid would turn people away, make them feel like I was a jerk or something.


I was completely wrong of course, as all of you have left me such wonderful comments, and I'm glad that I was able to be so honest and not be judged.


This award has made me feel all the more comfortable about writing exactly what I think and feel, and knowing that all of you out there in the blog community will welcome each post with no biases or judgments.


Oh and one more thing.


I am flattered that Bella would recognize and acknowledge that I am completely in touch with my "feminine" side by inducting me into a "sisterhood". I am truly honored. (Is that legal? Can I really be in a sisterhood?)


It's really been a great release and very therapeutic to write in this blog, but there is so much more I want and need to write about. 


I want to start posting more on my thoughts about being a pagan, especially in a house in which I cannot practice as I'd like, I want to learn so badly.
I want to get in touch with my spirit guides, and more of my totem animals. I have learned so much about the spiritual and myself since I started down this path, but there is so much more I want to know.


Who is my goddess? I know of my god, Cernunnos, but in my visions of him, the goddess is there, but she is behind me, obscured from view. I have gotten a sense of her being a mist, a bluish mist. I really want to find out who she is, and really get in contact with her, commune with her.


But, that is a subject of another post.


Thank you Bella, for making my day wonderful. You are an amazing person.


Oh yeah, and before I go, stayed tuned for a post in which I bestow this honesty award on to some of you out there, you have truly been an inspiration to me.


Have a great night everyone!!

Ok I'm really back this time

I don't know what's gotten into me! 


Has it really been almost a week since I posted?


Well I am doing ok, and I have no excuses other than being busy doing other things.


My next post will come with my blog being properly "dressed" for Halloween, so watch for that one.


The full moon this time has been a happy one for me. I have made a conscious decision to be happy, and my life has been so much better.


I'm going outside after I finish here, and even though it's raining, and I can't see her, I'm going to bathe in the glow of Luna's full and wonderful energy.


Until we meet again!